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Name: Wilson
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 1/31/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: I've had a habit of writing what I feel in here. Some might find it kind of depressing, but hey I can't just stop feeling pain. Most of my entries are about that special someone in my life, or would be special someone anyways. Just as a bonus for going this deep into my xanga IM me and tell me that you read my profile in my xanga and saying that you want to know who exactly I'm talking about. I'll tell you.
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
7/28/2003
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| No matter how low you feel, family will always be there to pick you up...always.
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| I promised myself never again. This account was to be neglected until this site was gone for good, but as my feelings for you revived, so does this blog. For the uninitiated, this account isn't for me to write about what I did over the course of my days, but a place to spill my thoughts and feelings. Doing so will hopefully help me clear my head enough to not want to drown my sorrows in alcohol. Don't let the two year drought of posts give you a false idea that my life has been perfect, it hasn't been. I'm still reaching for what I can't get. Dreaming about the unattainable. Whether it be girl one or girl two, it doesn't really matter. The chances of either falling for me are next to nothing. But it's you that I'm thinking of, the one who started all this about three years ago. The one I haven't been able to get out of my mind for the past week. The one I'm so desperately trying to forget now. I don't know what made me think of you, but I did and I fell hard once again. It seems kind of unfair that if I left, your life would be unphased, but if you left, my life would never be the same. Honestly, I wish I could see you again, it's been way too long, but that seems unlikely without divine intervention. Well, not a real long entry, but it'll suffice for now. I miss you and I hope that our lives cross again soon.
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| It's strange how something like a song can instill a sense of serenity
from the past. Listening back on some songs lodged deep within my hard
drive, I came across a few that I listened to while growing up, each
with a memory attached. The songs that almost brought a tear to my eyes
though were: Crossroad and 1st Of Tha Month by Bone Thugs N Harmony, and Dear Mama by
2Pac. These songs were my lullbies, the songs my cousin played day in
and day out. I was safe back then, carefree and tranquil. With my
cousin laying on my grandma's bed and me on her floor, and with my
grandma in the next room, nothing could remotely hurt me. I dreaded
those days when I was young. Bored out of my mind and watching the old
TV that was always too dark to see anything, but what I would give to
just go back to that simpler time. The time where I could run into the
arms of my grandma whenever the thunder got too loud or when I could
sneak in one of my cousin's jello cups and my grandma would cover my
tracks. Watching The Price is Right while sitting next to her over the summer and going back to I Love Lucy
in the other room after. Nothing ever changed, and compared to times
like these, that was bliss. Everything seems to be slipping further and
further away from me now. I just need a constant in my life. Something
that can never change. Something I can focus my attention on so I don't
have to see this new world gestating in front of me. Something that can
comfort and reassure me that everything will end up alright. Whatever
it is though, I'm not going to find it here. As fun as it is spilling
my emotions onto this Xanga, I must say, it's probably done me more
harm than good in the long run. This blog is riddled with secrets I've
confessed and problems I've revealed, which the general public
shouldn't know. Whatever I've said in here is all true, or at least for
the time it's been posted. This will be the last. The last post. The
last confession. I declare this Xanga to be dead and soon be buried.
Good night everyone.
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| like ewwwwsss ... your font is so ooglyyy ! >.< haha guess who willson x] your worst nightmare !!
mwahahahahahahahahas .. L0Ls yup it's the one and only chwiisdeenuh again .. gosh i wonder how long i haven't blogged in here .. like 239408209384820398402938423098402938420394 mins. haha .. i was bored and i started looking at other people's info and xangas and myspaces .. and i came upon yours and looked through it and realized how horrifying it looked ! jkjk .. can't believe i still have your pw on my computer .. L0Ls that's crazy aye .. omg i'm like writing non-sense here ya know -.-'' this is how bored i am .. not like anyone reads this xP so yeahhs. i mean who would go and blog in dorky wilson's xanga .. haha aiities let's see what else is there to write about ?! nothing i guess .. just that stupid wilson is a BIG bully .. jeesh .. and ruined my beautiful loser sign that i was going to tape on him without him noticing .. but i guess it didn't work -.-'' o wells.. i'm done here .. oh btw i'm going to change your font and if you don't like it then change it back x]
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| Since I don't want my english skills to completely deteriorate, I'm going to start writing reviews on video games I have completed. Summer school has taken up most of my time, but I have been able to finish some games on my off time. The first review will be on Psychonauts on the Xbox. I guess I'll take requests, but I already have about four games I plan to write reviews on, so I might not get to any requests anytime soon.
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